I just made myself nervous

I just put up a new sales post on garagesalejapan. I don't know why I'm so bothered. No one ever buys the stuff I put up anyway. I guess this time I'm nervous because I want people to buy things and at the same time I don't. I only put them up for sale so I could buy some Hetalia items. I should be saving up for school >.< Ugh, this whole having no money thing is really starting to wear on me. I thought it would be easy, but it's not. Nevermind that I just want stuff, but I really do need to start saving up for school.

Well, I applied to starbucks today, and I'm going to go up there Monday to talk to the manager. I really hope that he hires me. I've been applying for tutoring positions but no one seems to want to hire me. I even paid $30 to be on a site for tutors and nothing! I should have looked into it first. I don't have that kind of money. If anything I just need this job to have money.

Money, money, money... Can anyone spare a job?

I need money to buy shipping supplies, and I need money for fun, and I need money for school... Ugh it's too much! Come on now >.<

What I need to do is organize everything that I need to ship from bookmooch. Bookmooch better start pulling through for me. They've been awesome at the books they have sent, and I know I just need to be patient. Not every book I want is going to be up on the site immediately. It would be nice but... meh. Then if people actually buy from me on here, then I'll have to organize that too. Woo...


Eren Trials

My official list of games that I own and have beaten. I may have traded in a game or two that I have beaten and have included them on the list. Anything that has been marked out has been beaten. Hopefully I can get a few more strikethroughs XD


Tales of Graces f (never played)
Persona 4 Arena
Final Fantasy XIII
Final Fantasy XIII-2
Heavy Rain
Portal 2
Dead Space
Dead Space 2
Silent Hill 2

Silent Hill 3
Ni No Kuni
Naruto Shippuden Ultimate Ninja Storm 2
Resonance of Fate


Dissidia 012
Crisis Core: Final Fantasy
Shadow of Destiny (PSP VERSION)
Final Fantasy I

Final Fantasy II
Final Fantasy IV
Kingdom Hearts: BIrth By Sleep
Fate Extra
Tales of the World: Radiant Mythology
Hakuouki: Demon of the Fleeting Blossom
Hakuouki: Warriors of the Shinsengumi
Persona 1
Persona 2
Persona 3


Persona 4 Golden
Virtue's Last Reward
Assassin's Creed: Liberation


Tales of Destiny
Final Fantasy IX
Final Fantasy VII
Final Fantasy VIII

Final Fantasy Anthology (Never played)


SMT: Digital Devil Saga
SMT: Digital Devil Saga 2
SMT: Devil Summoner (Never played)
SMT: Devil Summoner 2
SMT: Nocturne
SMT: Persona 3 Fes
SMT: Persona 4
.hack GU Vol. 1 Rebirth
.hack GU Vol. 2 Reminisce

.hack GU Vol. 3 Redemption
Tales of the Abyss (Never played)
Tales of Legendia
Silent Hill 4: The Room
Final Fantasy XII
Final Fantasy X
Final Fantasy X-2
Shadow of Destiny
Resident Evil 4
Kingdom Hearts 1
Kingdom Hearts 2

Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories
The Bouncer
Killer 7 (Never played)
We Heart Katamari
Inuyasha: Secret of the Cursed Mask
Space Channel 5

Nintendo DS:

Time Hollow
Professor Layton and the Curious Village
Professor Layton and the Diabolical Box

Professor Layton and the Last Spector
Professor Layton and the Unwound Future
Pokemon White
The World Ends With You
999: Nine Hours Nine Persons Nine Doors (Technically beat but got bad endings)
Final Fantasy IV
Final Fantasy III
Trace Memory
Okamiden (never played)
SMT: Devil Survivor 2 (never played)
SMT: Strange Journey


Rhythm Thief
Tales of the Abyss (never played)
Kid Icarus
Kingdom Hearts: Dream Drop Distance (never played)
SMT: Devil Survivor Overclocked (never played)
Fire Emblem: Awakening
Theatrerhythm: Final Fantasy
Professor Layton and the Miracle Mask
SMT: Soul Hackers


Tales of Vesperia
Bioshock Infinite
The Walking Dead


Fragile Dreams: Farewel Ruins of the Moon
Super Smash Bros: Brawl
Tales of Symphonia 2: Journey to the New World


Tales of Symphonia
Eternal Darkness: Sanity's Requiem


Amnesia: The Dark Decent
Enzai: Falsely Accused

Absolute Obedience

Gameboy Advance:

Tales of Phantasia (never played)
Final Fantasy V

My Darling Canadian

I don't actually have one... XD But I want one!!!

I want to marry a Canadian maaaaan!

The other day my friends and I were talking about our dream guys. I was telling them that I just had this perfect scenario in my head where I meet my sweetie Canadian. I don't know what he looks like but I know what he acts like. He's really shy and really kind and sweet. When he first talks to me he stutters and he tries to say a lot but he can't. And I help him out and we get to talking and we fall in love eventually and we get married. We don't have like a massive house but we're well to do and we have a big library and we cuddle together with our books and I drink coffee and he drinks tea. I get so happy and excited and I'm so in love even though I have no idea who this man is hahaha. XD

And I know out there somewhere in Canada there's a man talking about some crazy American chick that he wants to marry.

Hahaha my dream man!!!

My sweetie Candian <3 


This isn't going to be an inspiration post or anything like that... This is just for me to write down some of my favorite inspirational quotes, lines, songs, and anything else. I'm going to put them in a book or notebook and keep them near me always. This is just so I don't forget them.

Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light. 

Korean/Japanese Artist

So I'm just having so much trouble keeping up with Korean and Japanese music. I'm gonna start keeping up with some of the news sites and hope that they announce some new music coming out (and reddit) but I'm going to keep a list of my favorite ones right here and remember to check those out every now and then and see if there's anything new from them. 

After School
FT Island
Son Dam Bi
Brown Eyed Girls
Epik High
Yoon Wha Jae In 
Lee Jung Hyun
Lee Hyori

Ones I should Check Out
Sunny Hill
Nine Muses
Lee Hi

Ayumi Hamasaki

First day of school + life in general

Not the first day of school period. This is my first day at a university. I spent a lot of years at community college and this is my first time going to university. It's not hard. I'm only taking once class, World Lit 1. At first I was thinking this was a bit of a waste of time but I met a really nice girl there. She's originally from South Korea and her name is Eun Joo. We really clicked today and we had a lot of fun talking to each other. I was surprised when she asked for my number, but I'm glad she did. It was fun to finally meet someone in a class and get to know them and become friends with someone new. 

The class itself is going to be fun. I can tell. My teacher is really hyper and she's kind of just all over the place. I think she'll make all of these stories a lot of fun though. That's the thing with Lit classes. They're usually not that fun unless the teacher makes them fun. It's especially hard for students who have no interest in literature to keep up and find it enjoyable, but I think she'll be able to open the class up get them to enjoy this stuff. I'm already enjoying it. The first thing we're going to read is Gilgamesh. I actually haven't read this one before, but it seems really good so I'm excited to get on it. I was going to read it today, but I didn't because I'm a lazy bum so that'll be for tomorrow. 

Also tomorrow I'll be going on a post office mission Dan. I'm actually very glad I was able to sell these figures. I really needed the money for tuition. It was perfect timing. I just need to ship these things and it'll all be done. I've been doing a really good job of saving money lately. That was one of my goals for 2013. It's nice to save money and then be happy when you look in your bank account and it's not deathly low. I don't even really have anything I'm desiring terribly right now so I'll be good for a while I think. Just throw the money in savings and watch it grow. Honestly, I've mostly been spending my money on food. Lately my house hasn't had much food in it and it makes me sad. I'll be going out to eat Wednesday with Emily for her birthday and we're going to indulge in sushi... Which will be hard on my wallet XD But I'll be okay. 

Then there's my writing thing. I'm finding it hard to sit and write, but I think when I start spending more time in the library I'll find it easier to do that. I really need to finish this story by the end of the month and I've figured out my goal for February as well. February will be dedicated to editing and publishing at the end of the month. Or at least close to it. That's not when I originally wanted to do it, but it'll be fine. I have a lot of nerves about it because it's just so hard to get your name out there and get people to recognize you, but what can you do? Just work hard and do your best to convince people to buy your book. I know I'll be able to convince my friends, but the hard part will be getting the masses to buy it. The next book will be my short story book, which I think I want to kind of have it be a follow up to this one. They won't have anything to do with each other, but they'll be themed the same. 

For 2013 I also decided one of my subgoals would be to exercise more. I've been eating really healthy lately. I only drink sodas when I go out and even then I tend to get a water. I've been eating a lot of salads lately and not because I'm forcing myself to, but because I just want to. It's been nice. I wish I could have some people to actually exercise, but my few friends who are exercising don't care to invite me along and the rest just don't exercise period. I don't know why my few friends who do exercise don't bring it up to me. I guess they just don't think I can do it. Sometimes it shocks me how my friends view me. I suppose I can come off in certain ways, but sometimes when someone says something about me or thinks something about me it's really degrading. Like cooking for example. I can cook. I know I've made it out that I just straight up can't cook and don't know my way around a kitchen, but I can cook. And I can cook well. I just don't like to. I don't do things I don't like to do and one of those things happens to be cooking. Exercising is the same way. I can do it. I think I would enjoy doing it. I would enjoy it more and feel more motivated to do it if I had friends to go along with, but since no one wants to bother with me in that aspect I'm on my own. 

Ah well. Woe is me. Nothing to fret over. I've got other stuff to do such as read and write. I've taken to listening to a lot of orchestra music as well and I think that's really helped to me keep me focus on my tasks at hand. Plus it's very relaxing. I find it very calming and it's just... Very nice. 

Well it's nice to get all my thoughts out like this. I've had a lot on my mind as of late and I really don't like having my mind just full of stuff. It's really bothersome. I just need to get back on track and keep things going. This is going to be a good year for me. It has to be. I started it off well and I feel motivated and strong. Some days more than others but overall I'm determined and I want to achieve everything I said I would. Nothing to it, but to do it. 

I want to put a quote here about how life is hard, but you have to overcome and all that jazz but... The picture is clear. 

Tokidoki wishlist

If in red and caps that means it is top priority
Striked out means I own it


Sunny Day
Segeant Rumble

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